latest setup...tba

berat...

ohh segalanya sangat berat bagiku, penat memikirkan ape la nasib badan ni. susah btl nk meringankan sikit kepala aku ni. nth tetiba nak mengisi ruang blog yang agak ketinggalan ni. (brp byk ni laa).

actually aku amik kesempatan berehat panjang baru2 ni,hjg bln lps(x der la lama sangat,seminggu je) cuma cuti tu diamik masa org lain giat bekerja. ye la seminggu slps tu cuti sekolah dah start, ikutkan nk mintak cuti time school break mmg susah skt, perit ditambah dengan kerja yang tak penah abis. pikir nyer pikir sampai bila nk conclude aku pun tak tahu.

ape yang berat sangat tu?
first sekali ...adik ak dh berjaya menjejak menara gading,UIA seperti yang diharapkan famili ku. mulanya aku agak lega bile dah mengantar dia ke cna. tp nthla mcm mana rsny skrg...

second nyer...sorang lagi ni br abis bljr. time yg agak x cantikny sebab kegawatan yang boleh tahan menyeksakan. teringat time peritnya aku nak cari kerja. tiap2 hari rikikan keje dia ni...klau dia dh keje sngla skt aku...

thirdly..cptnya masa bergerak! projek yang aku tgh run skrg dh dkt sgt nk ketemui datelinenya. masuk meeting je muka aku berubah, kne sembur je. knp aku ni slow?sebab guide yg sgt kurang ke? ssh nya nk survive independent.sdkt sbyk memoral downkan smgt ak nk pursue PE.

keempat ny plk, aku rasa kosong sgt. nth knp rs cm ni.duk umh tok ak x hepi ke?or ak krg member kt JB? atau xder someone special? jwpn mgkin ketiga2nya. dulu time bljr walaupun perit dan kering tapi still menyeronokkan, at least class crowded, ptg2 main futsal, mlm kuar tgk bola, mengigatkan blk saat2 tu menambahkan lagi pemberat. smpi thp aku rasa bosan duk JB. smpi ble nk solo nth?

last skli yg ak agak concern, dh ramai tegur aku, setahun yang lalu aku agak fit, skrg dh berisi, ya, berat badan naik berkG...adakah ini punca pemberat-pemberat diatas equal kepada physical weightage skrg? mooo...worriness bertambah skrg.

takder tempat lain dah nk luahkan perasaan ni. blog aku jugak yang jadi mangsa.

jaa

great challenge ahead...better shutdown for now...

a year past so fast. great development, i'm still enjoying my current life. so-so stable nevertheless I aware improvement still require for pursuing my ultimate dream. so i decided to take a bit long rest as my season break alike as preventive maintainence toward my head processor.

new companion is coming. friend or foe does not matter unless diverting the situation for positive possibility. company is growing well, i need to upgrade mine. at the age of entering twenty-fifth I may consider myself as great progress of archivement.

a lot of thing happened even for a week. tough task to lead teams, so many pending. better than doing nothing. dateline is closer, i wish for longer of year 2009. it May already. i guess my mind jam already. need a longer shutdown....else it wouldn't last longer.

i'll shutdown for now...ja nee.

expecting something new from me!